Hey Everyone!
As I am sitting here on this frigid, 15° Fahrenheit (real feel of -4°) winter afternoon, there has been a lot on my mind lately about the life I feel compelled to live. It's been on my heart even more the past couple of years with the health issues I have had and then all the doctors appointments, labs and procedures I have endured the past year and a half or so. I am honestly so over it and all the meds I have had to take, with who knows what side effects. I am honestly wondering if one of the things I am dealing with has been caused by one of my medications. While my condition and symptoms are a "rare" side effect, I am the queen of rare things happening, like having bells palsy twice.
I know my current job and urban living are doing me know good, as evident as my resting heart rate going down several points on my weekend and going back up during the work week. We all like having money, but working the retail life isn't it for me, and I am ready for a change.
I also have come to the point where enough is enough with all the medical appointments and never-ending procedures, and I canceled one I can't afford financially even with financial assistance and don't have the time to take off work to rest for a week after, and this is just a more invasive option to the other two lesser invasive options and labs that I have already have done for this doctor for this condition that my insurance and financial assistance covered. I am not willing to dig myself into more debt than I am already in for a more invasive procedure that is "to try to get better answers", when the other two procedures and labs were to not have to do this. At this point, after I have my follow up with this specialist, I am going to try to find a good naturopathic doctor and see what they can do to help me from a more holistic and lifestyle standpoint. I have already talked to a Dietician, and I am trying to make lifestyle changes.
I would like to get out of retail, and urban living. My goal is to live on some property, have a garden, raise chickens, maybe some goats and pigs. I definitely want to process my own animals, have fresh eggs, and all the things. I know it is a lot of work, but that work would be worth it for my health and wellbeing as well as for the well being of the family I want to have.
If anything, it really is time to be making changed, and getting away from harmful chemicals, and living a more sustainable life.
No comments:
Post a Comment