"I am looking for love, real love, ridiculous, inconvenient consuming can't live without each other Love." - Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and the City)
You either get all of me or known of me… that is how it is. You can't just walk into my life and let me fall for you until you get bored or you find someone better or life gets better for you. I am not a toy you can just put back on a shelf. It's all of me or nothing. I'm a person, I have feelings. I'm someone who deserves to be loved fully! I am enough. And if you can't see that, I feel sorry for you.
You opened my mind and heart to things I never thought I wanted or could find. You treated me like I was the one. Like I meant a damn to someone. Like I was chosen. As if someone truly wanted me for me. Even through all my darkness and dorkiness.
It's funny how a moment can change your life, and yet another moment can break it. You grow up thinking you will find the love of your life, your soulmate, your Prince Charming. But that's just a fantasy. It doesn't happen like that. You will find a lot of lessons, maybe if you are lucky, you will find a blessing.
Finding your true love takes time, and it takes chances. But how many chances are too many chances? Sometimes people stay where they shouldn't because they are comfortable and used to a certain situation. Life shouldn't be about being comfortable. It should be about adventure, excitement, and real.
I know what I want, I've waited this long and I think I deserve that and nothing less of that. I know it won't be easy. And so many lessons have been happening. But one day I'll find that one blessing who will flip my world upside down. I know it sounds like a fantasy, a dream, maybe it is. Maybe I'm just not meant to find someone or maybe I'm just meant for more.
It's hard when you think you found it and yet, nothing. Finding someone you get along with, have amazing chemistry with, can talk to for hours and it feels like minutes. It feels like you've known each other for so long. Someone who just gets you, who you just are near and feel comfortable and safe. You miss when they aren't around.
But I am waiting for the real love. A love when someone won't break you, a love where it's mutual. A love that makes all others seem meaningless.
Something real. After everything I've been through in my life, all the pain and suffering, I deserve it!
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