This last trip was not great. My mindset was fixed and I couldn't get out of the negativity. My family was ungrateful. Our family friend was being a jerk when he was driving. I could go on and on. I decided while my husband decided to go out to a nice dinner with his friend. The kids voiced that no we don't want to go because our friend is so picky that no eatery was going to cut. Who wants to get out of the car 6 times and go look at the menu when everyone is hungry. So, I fed the kids and started loading up the van. After 4 days of poor sleep, I really didn't eat anything. My husband didn't even think to call and say, " Can I bring you anything." Not to mention, he took his sweet time coming back. So, I was feeling sorry for myself. I took my Kindle and got a large, very expensive iced coffee to sit outside.
I was reading my book and sipping my drink. I hear, "Can you help me." My immediate thought was really, really, can't I catch a break? I took a breath. I tried to have a pleasant tone. There was an elderly woman with a walker and a golden retriever. The Golden retriever had wrapped her lease around the bush and the woman's walker. She was traveling alone. She lives in a van full-time with hotel breaks. She had been caught up for quite a bit. I went to get a chair for her to sit down on. I untangled the dog. He was your typical Golden very, sweet, but not the sharpest crayon in the box. He didn't understand go around. I found the delight. He had been carefully holding a kitten in his mouth. I am sitting there thinking don't be a rat in there over and over. He finally gets untangled. He wouldn't give the kitten up. Finally, we get him to drop the kitten into my hand. I stood there a minute and thought if I hadn't gotten up, this poor woman would have fallen. It is those little moments in life that are humbling. The manager called the shelter to pick up this kitten and several others in the bush. The mother was found in the road with one of her kittens.
Maxine and her dog Max were untangled. Now, I could have been the love and light offering to walk her dog and sit to visit with her. I didn't didn't need to do any more than I did. The humbling part was I going to ignore her because she didn't sound like she needed urgent help. She would have been down because her dog wanted to rescue these tiny kittens. Sometimes, it is enough to answer the need and leave.
My husband returned and promptly went to sleep which annoyed me after he had a 3-hour nap. It was then, I realized that the age difference is really showing up this year. It is little things that are adding up. I want to be a cherished wife, not a caregiver to someone who choses to overeat and not be active. Before I went to sleep that night, I told him to think about the level of care I give him, he doesn't come close to 1% with me.
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