As the kids are, growing up, drifting farther, farther, and farther from us, and there's nothing we can do, but to, keep on, being there for them, emotionally, in case they needed us…translated…
Normally, when I'd arrived home from work, the crack in the bathroom door would have the lights, and some steams seeping through, with the songs that Sky sung in the shower; but as I'd opened the front door, there's, nothing but, darkness, nobody's in the, shower. Then I'd recalled, that Sky spent the night at his classmates, while Hearts is at school, at sports practice, and the house with just me, seemed, so, filled with the, chills.
from before, this was, how close, they were...photo from online
It seemed, that since they'd become, teenagers, even as we all live under the same, roof, it'd felt, that they were, so, far, far away from me. After they'd, gotten into the middle school years, I'd never gotten the chances to, hug them anymore, maybe, it's my lacking courage, or that I feared, rejection, and the awkwardness, after all, I'd, set up a ton of rules for them, like remembering the English vocabulary terms, the time to go to bed……….a dad with a ton of rules, guess it's, my punishment, for not being able to, hug my own, children then.
Sky's FB headshot, was him in a hoodie, with his head lower, standing by a bridge that glowed pink, maybe, it's, with a sort of a filter. Looking at that photo, it's like, looking at a, complete, stranger. This young adult, do I, know him? What's he doing by that bridge? Who took the photo? With his head hung low, was there something that was, bothering, him?
Sometimes, I'd, skimmed my daughter's IG. Her IG name is a combination of English alphabets, numbers and, some, symbols, with the word, Athlete, and her school and classroom number and her seating number, he had a sixteen-digit total number of, followers, I was, among, one of them. In the photo she was wearing a black-and-white dress, a selfie she'd taken with her mask, on. In another, she seemed to be watching the crowd, shopping around, with the red ancient style mansion against the backdrop, maybe, it's taken at the favorite of the younger generations, at Ximenting! I'm quite certain I know when that photo was, taken, it was a day that's, very cold, and I'd, nagged her on how she wasn't, wearing enough. And, in the post, she'd stated, "no matter what, I will, run towards you, no matter, what", I wanted to tell her, so would, dad, toward you, too.
as the kids grew older...into their, teens...photo from online
And so, this is a father's, feeling a bit, nostalgic over how his own teenage children had, drifted from him, a bit of that, empty nest, coming on, maybe? Because his kids are slowly growing up, and, becoming, more and more awkward, when they interact with him, as they're, teens, and, the only way this father has, of feeling closer to his young, during this time in their lives, is by keeping an eye on their goings on on the social media, and offer his emotional support, staying close by their sides, in case, they need him.
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