B. Ælfbear posted: " How would you describe yourself to someone? It's always difficult for me to know what I should say when I'm expected to describe myself. What's important enough to tell others, and what's just me babbling on? Better yet, in some contexts, what's safe " Ælfbear Muses
It's always difficult for me to know what I should say when I'm expected to describe myself. What's important enough to tell others, and what's just me babbling on? Better yet, in some contexts, what's safe to tell those I'm speaking with?
In the context of this blog, I suppose it doesn't matter much. With that said, perhaps it would help for me to break it down.
I am a generally anxious person who often struggles with social interaction. I am neurodivergent, specifically autistic (and questioning ADHD). I have a lot of big dreams and like to imagine myself as this cool person who will someday achieve them, but I also struggle with executive dysfunction a lot along with self-doubt.
Social identity-wise: I am a queer Appalachian, politically a leftist and religiously/ spiritually a polytheist Pagan/ Heathen and witch. I am a nonbinary trans man and grey pan-asexual (basically, I don't feel sexual attraction/ desire much; but gender doesn't matter when I do).
I had a cousin (a distant relative by marriage) who once said that I had "witch eyes" and I grew up being told that my eyes change color. As it turns out, I apparently have central or partial heterochromia. This is likely what causes my eyes to appear to be different colors, making each color in them stand out depending on different factors.
I'm also left-handed, which is often commented on, in what I interpret as a joyful surprise, by older folks who notice.
I am a creative person when I have the executive function and inspiration for it.
As evidenced by this blog, I am a writer. I enjoy writing my thoughts about topics that interest me, poetry, and (every once in a blue moon) short fiction.
I'm also an artist. Much of my work through the years has been pencil drawings, watercolor (both paint and penci), digital art, photography, jewelry making, and makeup art. I've also dabbled in working with clay and making costume pieces. (Y'all can find my art on Instagram and Redbubble.)
My sense of humor can sometimes be a little dark, sometimes nerdy or weird. I've always been "that weird person". I'm into the goth and punk aesthetic, dead things, history, science, social justice... Really, there are too many things that interest me to bother listing here now. The point is: I have an interest in the world around me and in learning.
I also think of myself as compassionate, or I at least try to be. That's probably where my interest in social justice and being leftist comes in. I want a better world - not just for myself and my family, but everyone.
I've been told by others that I am emotional, argumentative, weird, crazy, a doormat, and too softspoken. I've also been told that I am passionate, care a lot about others, am creative, kind, and resilient. Any of these things could be true about me. Sometimes, it's difficult for me to see the good things about myself. I'm working on that to build a healthier and happier me.
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