I feel sad and lost right now and I'm not so sure what triggered it. Maybe because the boyfriend got mad at something we said and yelled at us and slammed a door. I don't know. He calmed down rather quickly. I think he's bored and frustrated. But that's only a guess. I don't really know.

I only know i feel lost and sad. Maybe it's also because i didn't see my therapist this week and that's been feeling odd. We are not someone who readily gets an appointment when something comes up anymore because we're just not that urgent anymore and that feels weird. Good, but also sad because our relationship with our therapist is changing and that change also makes us scared... Even though logically there's nothing to be scared of.

Change... Change is hard for us and a lot of things are changing right now. The way we relate to people and the world... The world itself seems a little scary to some of us right now with all the things going on. We're also feeling under a lot of pressure for some reason even though we're not.

Ah... It's just so weird. It's been weird for a few days now and I'm not sure how to make it un-weird...

I haven't been able to coherently write about this in a few days now so I'm just going to send this off now. I dunno...

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