Most people know that when someone is diagnosed bipolar or manic-depressive it means they their emotions experience swings. Our medication then is, of course, meant to try and regulate it. Everyone, has different swings but there is one thing we all share in common, emotional fragility. It doesn't take as much to tip us one way or the other. It certainly also is just as easy to tip us further up or down. For me, my swings already tip down so when something happens it's hard to stop my emotions from being completely pulled down. I'm not going to say what happened but it is an event that is big enough to dip most people pretty down. All my energy is now being channeled to just keep myself afloat. That means everything else is taking a big hit. I'm in a crucial time in putting together something magical. A career out of things I want to do vs. have to. Yet, all of that energy I had is now drained. I 'm really struggling to keep that fire alight and doing the work I need to do.
This is one of those times where I'm grateful for my emotional support dog Atlas but I remember that there is still a really huge part of me that wished I had someone here. Someone really on my side and being a part of a true emotional support system. I would feel a lot better if someone was here with me.
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