I've reflected quite a lot on our life in Austria, and Mr Wommack said the other day that even if you make mistakes, but are doing it with a good heart, he can work with you, he's a God of second chances.
Or, maybe it was like Moses, we had made a wrong decision, and something had us in the wilderness for fourteen years. It certainly was a time of spiritual growth for us, and we learnt a lot, through our own study and reflections and teaching on the TV. During Corona, we even had services live from England.
Did we look back too much? How I struggled when the kids visited and went back, or when we visited. I had a huge bout of depression the first time we drove back to the UK for Christmas and Dave has more than once said, he wishes we had gone back then. And with a grin it would mean we didint have a certain black dog, who was my therapy. If we had totally gone into German, not watched UK TV, missed the kids, would it have been any different?
So many times, I battled with wanting to return, but buckled down, prayed and got over it. Even found joy in my life. Then when in January 2019, Dave said maybe it was time to go home, I leapt with joy, never having expected to hear him say that. The following eighteen months, I so wanted to get home, my heart was no longer for Austria. That does sound like it was his change of heart working in me.
Now I feel so at the end of myself and I did feel often in Austria that I had done all I wanted to do, is it time for God to finally find me usable? Does he have a ministry for me? It took Mr Wommack many years!
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