AUTHOR'S NOTE: Since appearing on a local-to-me platform, NEXTDOOR, i've really had to watch what I write, which is a good thing for me. It forces a little more discernment into play on my part, which for me, is a good thing.
I had a Health Care Aide who awakened my desire for physical closeness---something i think we all crave in one form or another. it wasn't really possible in my marriage and then this aide wasn't available---through no fault of hers or mine. Friends will do only so much, the church can do more but only so much, professionals who care for you are bound, generally by professional guidelines.
So I decided to go to FACEBOOK and found many women in chatrooms and Messenger were desperately after the same thing. Which naturally led to the friend/lover for hire market---i was desperate. After having paid good money and having been stood up, had the rate suddenly doubled after negotiating and paying their price or lured on by pictures, I found scant comfort there. ooh. people talked a good line, but getting one's money's worth, at reduced prices (yes we're talking about renting human flesh here)? I avoided the local hookup pages for obvious reasons---I am married, I have severe E. D. and STD's are real things.
All-in-all it's been one big disappointment---now don't flood me with offers! The good but deluded people got shoved aside and the not-as-innocent set their own prices and frequently changed them. I'm waiting for my last appointment now--a gal who talked a good line then,last minute wanted more which I agreed to, stood me up and after I responded to her on Messenger probably won't show up anyway. So much for being told and promised and getting not so much as a half-hearted hug! Got a few pictures and many broken promises. Can't afford the big time-this was grocery money, even church tithe being spent here!
My conclusion---if God blesses you with someone to love, hold on as long as possible for youth and ability soon fade. Be content and thankful for what you do have and whom you have....finding alternative supply is a risky and highly costly venture! Whether as babies being held or an older man needing close companionship, we all do crave it---that close touch. But be careful how you get it.
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Jonathan Caswell
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