October 2023
I am new to parenting my teenager. I have been her mum for every minute and second since she grew in my belly and so every phase is a first, together. New to being an 8th grade parent. New to all the pain, heartache, worry, overthinking, perseverating, joy, laughter, giggling that comes with being a mom to my teenager.
Yesterday the Middle School musical cast list was to be published at 3.36 pm. One minute after school gave out. We had been building up to this for weeks and especially the last 7 days since the auditions started. The stakes feel especially high for my child who loves theatre, prefers the Arts to sport and has been a part of every annual musical performance at her school since she was 6. She auditioned for one of the lead female roles and was looking forward to the cast list being announced with bated breath.
I too was distracted, going into my last meeting of the day. For the first few minutes I had my fingers crossed praying she got the role she wanted. My attention was snapped away by a conversation we were having and when I looked at my watch again it was 4.15. No message, no missed call.
We got home a little after eachother and I asked, tentatively, "so?" "I got the French Narrator mum". It's cool.
March 2024
The musical was a huge success. She got a small but significant role. Every time she was out of character and with the ensemble she danced her heart out. I sang and clapped and a couple of weeks later am still humming the songs.
When I find myself worrying about her, I have to close my eyes and see her confidently singing and dancing and giving it her all. I have to remember that she will persevere and she will be ok. It's such a roller coaster ride - being a mum and parenting my teen.
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