My 29th birthday is coming up later this month and I really thought I would be in a romantic relationship by now. Tbh, I wanted to get married 10 years ago, but thank God that didn't happen. He has better plans for me, than settling for what was available back then!
"Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand."-Proverbs 19:21 ESV
What do I have to show for being 29?
I have written a book, I have a good support system and many friends who love me (even if I have complained to them about being single, too many times.) I am still hoping for a special man, who will love me and accept me for me. I am reminding myself I can't make a man like me and I won't be in another relationship until God deems it time. It's the waiting on His divine timing that is hard for me. I know the man for me will show up at the right time I need him in my life. I have been single most my life and you would think I am used to the waiting.
News flash: I'm not. Contentment ebbs and flows in singleness. The older I get the harder it is to be content in this season, but I know it won't change until God says its time. So I am going to sit here and pray that it isn't much longer until "he" shows up.
I am reminded of something my brother told me,
"God doesn't say no to love, He says wait, not yet. If He said no Jesus wouldn't have gone to the cross and then were would we be?"
The answer to that question is we'd be screwed.
My brother was encouraging me that I just needed to wait on the Lord, my time is coming. Psalm 37:7 says,
"Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for him to act…"
That is what I am doing waiting and praying, although everything in my being wants to find a shortcut around this.
It's important to be alone with God, before anything gets in my way.
Just some thoughts.
Stay strong!
MH
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