Before that very first "flicker" on the monitors (was it a sonogram or an ultrasound???), you'd become, nonexistent…
Death came, before conception, it (death) had, SPARED you, but it'd not, spared me, because I'm, STILL H-E-R-E (don't ask "where"…), despite how I'd, carried you, for a WHOLE of FOURTEEN (that's what, FIVE FUCKING months more than all you ladies' "regular terms"…) FUCKING (so???) months back in 2008, you'd died.
And that should have, happened to ME, given how BAD my genes are (brain blip from back at age seven, family history of high blood pressure, cancer, diabetes, Alzheimer's, SEVERE myopia, yada, yada, yada), and yet, I'm still, alive, how's that even, possible? If the beliefs of EUGENICS stands up, I should've been DEAD, before CONCEPTION, but I'm still, here… (don't ask "where"…)
Dead before conception, that is, what you'd become to me, baby girl, and you will, STAY DEAD, and be in heave with Murphy, your uncle, and, like I'd told you the very final time: do remember, to GRAB your Uncle Kirby's butt for mommy, when you see him 'round in, heaven, 'cuz I really DO, miss, the ENGINE sound!
Dead before conception, and there's, nothing I can do 'bout it, it's way past my reproductive deadline of age THIRTY, I'm, twelve years after that already, which means I'm no longer, "fertile" (yeah right, I can still, have biological babies here, as my body saved up FOURTEEN ova for me back in the period of 2008 to 2009???)…
Dead before conception was what I should've been, what you already, are, and nothing can EVER change the F-A-C-T, that I'm still around (don't ask "where"…), but you're, not!
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