I didn't want to celebrate our anniversary this year. I wasn't going to get dressed up and go to dinner, so my husband could go on and on in public that it was our anniversary. My husband was stunned that I held the line on this one. I served leftovers for our anniversary. He is not hitting the mark in our daily lives. Our last trip broke me. Dishgate, me sitting in the back seat when his friend drove, I could go on and on. I will say what my older son said to his football coach, "I carry this team". Well, I carry far more in our day-to-day life, sometimes, I say enough.
My husband has been neglecting my feminine heart. I told him I didn't want him to do things because I felt hurt and angry. Empty gestures are worse. You know the ones that husbands do to get out of the doghouse. He needs to do them because I deserve the same care I give him. He needs to think ahead. I am a person who anticipates everyone's needs. Yet, I do not have that for myself. It would be nice to have that once in a while.
Our last trip broke me. It was one of the worst trips I have ever been on. I set the limit to never sit in the back seat like a child again. I won't go downstairs to get breakfast for everyone if he won't take his plate down after. You may wonder why I was bringing everyone breakfast. My husband's friend wanted to leave at a certain time. He wanted everyone in the same car. I could go on and on. My husband's friend makes little digs at me a lot of time. My husband dismisses him.
My husband needs to figure out how to court me again. I have only been married once and I deserve it. I am aware of my bias about those who have been married before. I believe in learning from your mistakes. During our courtship, we had many conversations about our love languages.
My husband put a note on my desk acknowledging that I am right that he is a bit too comfortable in our marriage.
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